So tired that eyeballs are bleeding, yet WIDE awake!!!

The reason for my insomnia this evening is completely unknown. There is no reason in the world I should be awake at 1 am creating a blog. Yet, in my delirious state and once again aquiring the movie Julia & Julie On Demand, really put this idea in my head. Maybe if I dump my needless, sometimes manic, usually always irrational thoughts on the computer, they will disappear into cyberspace. It is something I can only dream of because my mind races with senseless thoughts all day long. Perhaps it's because the most intelligent conversation I have during the day is with my recently turned 5 year old daughter? Or perhaps it's because I am busy trying to fill my 9 month old son's name in every imaginable song that I can think of ? It also could be that I try to stay on the same intellectual level as my 11 year old son, yet find that I get depressed because he knows so much more.

My only solace in my self pity is my adoring husband. When I say this I really mean it!! If anyone can brighten my day, it certainly is my man. Sadly, after getting all the family stuff squared away, by the end of the night it's Snoozeville party of 2 over here. I can't complain though, because he calls me twice a day from work, and I know people give him crap about it. The best part about my hubby, is that he could care less, and I LOVE that. He says he needs to hear my voice, and it gives me flutters galore every time he calls. This is exciting especially when the high point of your day is getting the dishwasher unloaded without the baby crawling inside of it.

So, now that I feel tuckered out enough and I will head off to bed next to the one I love. We will get to cuddle for about 10 minutes before the baby wakes to nurse, but I will cherish every second of it! Goodnight!